urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lil_miss_flip Close your eyes, open your ears,and you will hear her speak... lil_miss_flip 2006-03-14T22:55:42Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lil_miss_flip:12296 2006-03-14T22:55:42Z 2006-03-14T22:55:42Z I never really update my journal, but I've been listening to the Mary J. Blige song lately and I realize how much it relates to me and my relationship. I think you would understand my whole story if you remember my journals 2 summers ago, in 2004, when i first met him. Things have changed since then, BIG changes...<br /><br />Be Without You<br /><br />I wanna be with you, gotta be with you, need to be with you<br />(Oh, oh, oh, oh)<br />I wanna be with you, gotta be with you, need to be with you<br />(Oh, oh, oh, oh)<br />Oooo (oh, oh, oh, oh) oooo<br /><br /><b>Chemistry was crazy from the get-go<br />Neither one of us knew why<br />We didn't build nothing overnight<br />Cuz a love like this takes some time</b><br />People swore it off as a phase<br />Said we can't see that<br />Now from top to bottom<br />They see that we did that (yes)<br />It's so true that (yes)<br />We've been through it (yes)<br />We got real sh** (yes)<br />See baby we been...<br /><br />Too strong for too long (and I can't be without you baby)<br />And I'll be waiting up until you get home (cuz I can't sleep without you baby)<br />Anybody who's ever loved, ya know just what I feel<br />Too hard to fake it, nothing can replace it<br />Call the radio if you just can't be without your baby<br /><br />I got a question for ya<br />See I already know the answer<br />But still I wanna ask you<br />Would you lie? (no)<br />Make me cry? (no)<br />Do somethin' behind my back and then try to cover it up?<br />Well, neither would I, baby<br />My love is only your love (yes)<br />I'll be faithful (yes)<br />I'm for real (yes)<br />And with us you'll always know the deal<br />We've been...<br /><br />Too strong for too long (and I can't be without you baby)<br />And I'll be waiting up until you get home (cuz I can't sleep without you baby)<br />Anybody who's ever loved, ya know just what I feel<br />Too hard to fake it, nothing can replace it<br />Call the radio if you just can't be without your baby<br /><br />See this is real talk<br />I'm always stay (no matter what)<br />Good or bad (thick and thin)<br />Right or wrong (all day everyday)<br />Now if you're down on love or don't believe<br />This ain't for you (no, this ain't for you)<br />And if you got it deep in your heart<br />And deep down you know that it's true (come on, come on, come on)<br />Well, let me see you put your hands up (hands up)<br />Fellas tell your lady she's the one (fellas tell your lady she's the one, oh)<br />Put your hands up (hands up)<br />Ladies let him know he's got your love<br />Look him right in his eyes and tell him<br />We've been...<br /><br />Too strong for too long (and I can't be without you baby)<br />And I'll be waiting up until you get home (cuz I can't sleep without you baby)<br />Anybody who's ever loved, ya know just what I feel<br />Too hard to fake it, nothing can replace it<br />Call the radio if you just can't be without your baby urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lil_miss_flip:12165 2005-11-08T15:07:12Z 2005-11-08T15:07:12Z holy crap i'm writing an entry...<br /><br /><br />only because i'm at the computer lab and i finished researching for two essays i have to write next week, cuz other than that i have NO time. today is gonna be super busy, i will prob be getting home around 9:30pm wtf! i wish i had my free tuesdays where i only had class 12-1 then chilled the whole day. now i have work 8:30-11, then 3-9..ahhhh<br /><br />2 more days til i see him..<br />sooo excited!!! <br />:) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lil_miss_flip:12015 2005-08-29T20:19:25Z 2005-08-29T20:19:25Z August 23rd, 2005..<br /><br />its finally been ONE year and i can say it's been that long and not feel crazy for being crazy in love with him..<br /><br />..life for me has finally started. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lil_miss_flip:11523 2005-06-27T16:49:44Z 2005-06-27T16:49:44Z So its June 27th, a week after i've come back from peterborough, and i'm not working today..been feeling sick the past few days, even when dan was here, which sucked! but it was nice cuz he took care of me the whole week, more like pampered me lol (like walking across the street in the scorching heat to buy our dinner or running inside best buy from the parking lot to buy me the mariah carey cd after changing my mind and deciding that i want it lol)..<br /><br />peterborough is ghetto, that's all i have to say..lol sucky road trip, but i made 700 bucks so its all cool..<br /><br />its already been ten months..good goshies..lol its going by pretty fast, before i know it, it'll be our one year..hmm..which reminds me, i gotta call my aunt to ask to book that week in august for sherkston..it will be greeeat if i can get that date in..last final vacation before 3rd year of school..<br /><br />there's way too many things happening this summer and i too little time for it to all happen..aggghhh!!<br /><br />next entry: probably September lol urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lil_miss_flip:11378 2005-05-03T18:18:45Z 2005-05-03T18:18:45Z so this morning was really tough, having to say goodbye to him..i know i'm gonna see him friday again, but its just so tough especially since its like 5am and we're both really tired and groggy getting ready for work!! and he's always telling me how its just the situation for the time being, that one day, we will get to see each other a lot more..hmm.so i asked him if he wants to go to a blue jays game next tuesday, he said yes!! he asked his brother too, so i figured i'd ask my sis..2 bucks on tuesday, that's a pretty cool deal, it'll be nice to spend time with all of them.<br /><br />oh man, can't wait til the end of may..its gonna be SOOO good..it'll feel like heaven, i can imagine it already. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lil_miss_flip:11069 2005-04-26T18:16:43Z 2005-04-26T18:16:43Z Joyride - Mariah Carey Wooooo!!i'm finally done my second year of ACS.It has been a long, tough, stressful, but FUN year, simply cuz i've worked my ass off MOST of the year, and it has paid off with the marks i've gotten, and i'm really proud of that.And alot of it has to do with Dan, he's been the one to always motivate me and push me to do my best, he's my inspiration in everything i do, literally, lol. It's because of him that i'm eating healthier, i'm working out more, i'm actually budgeting my money rather than wasting it on stupidness, doing better in school, and just living life better in general. I know we don't see each other as much as we want to, but the couple of days we spend together is when i'm the most happiest. It's always so hard to say goodbye when he has to leave, it's been so bad sometimes that i'd cry just cuz he was leaving, and he'd just hold me in his arms and say "don't think of it as us leaving each other, just think of it as us saying good bye until next time.." That makes me feel better, and i'm so glad that his family is on thelong distance plan where its free after 8pm. I call that a blessing, cuz we don't even see each other so much, and so all of a sudden for us to be able to talk on the PHONE for free is amazing, lol we talk every night, even tho its not for long, just to hear each other's voices. I feel bad that most of our conversations on the phone end up in silly arguments, lol and i know it annoys him, but we both know that its where we clash in our relationship, our communication styles on the phone TOTALLY suck. But at the end of the day, that doesn't matter, and he tells me that he loves me EVEN tho i start the silly petty arguments. I can't believe he has that much patience!! it's retarded..lol. I'm gonna have so much fun this summer with him, and i know that when there's a downside to ur relationship its always balanced with an upside, and i know that the places we're going to and the times we're gonna spend with each other will be so awesome, my heart flutters when i even picture how much fun it'll be to do all the things we are gonna do this summer. We even plan to go to Wonderland this summer with his brother Paul and his girlfriend Maretta..she's so adorable, its really cute how she adores me, and as soon as she found out i asked Dan to tell them, she freaked. So that'll be awesome. <br /><br />Talking about him makes me miss him even more, lol, and i wish i could see him every day, but i'm glad that we do the things we do, cuz we have the most amazing adventures together lol his car has gone near and far, i can't believe its still working :P <br /><br />It was just our eight months on Saturday, and it really surprised me, cuz it seems like its been so much longer. And its even weirder how eight months ago i was so iffy about being in this relationship. Even thinking about what i wrote in LJ last summer while we were still talking, i was so lost! lol I was confused, and i didn't even seem like i wanted to be in it. The truth is, i was scared, because it was so unexpected, him coming into my life and all. And i guess that's how it goes in life, the best things that come into it always come when you least expect it, right? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lil_miss_flip:10833 2005-02-23T02:12:49Z 2005-02-23T02:12:49Z 3 Doors Down - Here By You reading week, yay!!!!<br /><br />now i have time to sit and not feel guilty about updating this thing..so bored right now..right now the one thing i need is a JOB..can anyone hook me up??! lol i NEED $$ flowing in desparately :(<br /><br />oh yes..six months in a few hours, omg! its not very long, but its long for me lol :) well it is my first relationship anyway..so life is treating me good, must go back to my roots and feel thankful for everything, cuz i tend to take certain things or certain people for granted..<br /><br />watching russell peters today..he said if you mixed someone from holland and someone from the philippines you get "hollapinos" (pronounced holla-penios just like jalapenos) HA. great stuff ;) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lil_miss_flip:10725 2005-01-20T03:10:26Z 2005-01-20T03:10:26Z stylistics - could it be i'm falling in love i love him..i seriously, seriously do..<br /><br />i never thought i could have someone so special in my life..its like..he's in my dreams, he's in my heart, he's in my wishes and hopes, and the best thing is, he's in MY reality..and i love that..<br /><br />ahhhh could it be i'm falling in love?? :P urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lil_miss_flip:10455 2004-11-14T00:10:47Z 2004-11-14T00:10:47Z Only You - Ashanti i'm so sick right now, i lost my voice.. :( i feel bad, cuz he came over yesterday to visit me..he even gave me roses, awww :( since he knew i was sick and we hadn't seen each other for 2 weeks..we both knew that there was a chance he'd get sick..today he's got a sore throat..ahhh i felt so bad, and he just was like "i don't care, it was totally worth it.." <br /><br />he's so great..we watched next friday and day after tomorrow..then after just looked at flyers and talked in my room..lol we had a heart to heart talk, which is very rare for him.. so i'm lucky i was able to get a lot of things out of him last night..haha<br /><br />i'm so lucky to have a guy like him..i hate how i take that for granted at times..but lately, especially with not seeing each other for 2 weeks, i've learned to truly appreciate him and our relationship..which is good..so things are going really well for us now..<br /><br />i was lying in bed and i was watching him look at a flyer, and he looked up at me and smiled..it shocked me right then and there how much he looked like Prince Harry at that moment..lol in my head i was like "wooooaah", i tried blinking my eyes to see if itd go away but he just really DID look like Prince Harry, hahah so i guess i've realized that if you look at him from a certain angle and his head is on a certain slant, he looks EXACTLY like Prince Harry..<br /><br />lol urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lil_miss_flip:10236 2004-10-31T22:21:52Z 2004-10-31T22:21:52Z Wow i can't believe i'm updating this thing, usually when i see the blank entry space i end up getting lazy and close the window. But today i feel inspired. And happy. It's a different kind of happy, tho, the kind of happiness i've never felt before, just because of all the heartaches and rejection my love life gave to me. Until he came. I was in denial that he could truly be someone worth being with before, its obvious from all the s**t i put on LJ a couple of months ago. Man i should delete that..lol. :( but i only did it cuz i was guarded. I did it cuz i didn't want to get hurt, or put myself in a position where i'd be hurt, because God knows how many times i've been hurt in the past. But today, i've realized one thing. All the "hell" i went through before happened for a reason, so i could truly appreciate and cherish what i have now. I can't believe i have him. I'm just so blown away every time i'm with him. And at times, i will admit, it scares me, because i know all this can just diminish in the blink of an eye, and i'll end up back at square one, feeling more pain than i came to begin with. But he reassures me. He doesn't necessarily do it with words. And it bugged me a bit that he wasn't the type to do that. I felt sad, cuz the majority of the time we'd spend talking was on msn, the other 6 days of the week we're not together, and it would hurt that he couldn't express the way he felt. And i told him that. He said he wasn't the type to say how he felt with words. I knew that though. I was just stubborn, and i kept bringing him down. But deep inside i knew that every time we were together, no words could amount to the affection he showed me in person. I mean, i can say "i adore who you are, and how you treat me", but when we're together and he can't let go of me cuz he just wants to keep holding me, and when we're sitting on the couch talking and he kisses my forehead every time i say something "cute", man that totally beats it. I love spending time with him. Sometimes so much that it hurts to see him in the beginning, knowing i'm going to have to say goodbye in the end. And it sucks how we only see each other once a week. And how after yesterday we won't be seeing each other in another two weeks. Oh how i'm gonna miss him. He makes me feel so comfortable. I can be myself when i'm with him. I can be like a little kid, i can act SO random, and i love making him laugh. Sometimes when we're in the car, and we're both laughing, and i just glance at him while he's laughing, my eyes get locked looking at him, in amazement of how hot he looks when he laughs. And how he smiles. He's hot when he's driving his car, his left hand holding the steering wheel and his right hand gripping the stick. He looks like a race car driver. HAHA. Sometimes he drives like one, which kinda scared me, so now he drives slower cuz he doesn't want to scare me. awww. He's hot when he plays hockey. He's a good hockey player, the last game i watched of his, he had one goal and one assist, bringing the team to another win. They're undefeated, did ya know?. *sigh*. LOL. I met his family. I fell in love with them. They're so humble and kind, religious, and outgoing too. I feel so comfortable when i'm with them, and normally its hard for me to feel comfortable in someone's house especially if i've just met the family, and they're a hundred and one kilometres away. I still get butterflies every time i'm about to see him, or when i know he's about to call. But the moment we're together, all my stress goes away, and i feel like its only me and him in this world. I hope these feelings never go away. <br /><br />Yikes! i didn't even know this entry was getting a bit too long..lol. Props to you guys who've read this far, thanx for even taking the time to read what i've written up above, even tho it might not mean anything to anyone other than ME. or HIM. If he ever gets the chance to read this.*sigh* i just wish he knew how much he means to me. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lil_miss_flip:9827 2004-09-29T04:01:28Z 2004-09-29T04:01:28Z Bye, bye, baby<br />Don't be long<br />I worry about you<br />While you're gone<br /><br />Bye, bye, baby<br />Don't be long<br />I worry about you<br />While you're gone<br /><br />I think of you in my dreams<br />You never know, just what you mean, to me<br />To me<br /><br />Boo ba bada boo be boo ba baada<br />Boo ba bada boo be ba da baada<br />Boo ba bada boo be boo ba baada<br />Boo ba bada boo be ba da baada<br /><br />Bye, bye, baby<br />Don't be long<br />I worry about you<br />While you're gone<br /><br />Bye, bye, baby<br />Don't be long<br />I worry about you<br />While you're gone<br /><br />I think of you night and day<br />I never know just what you meant, to say<br />To say<br /><br />Boo ba bada boo be boo ba baada<br />Boo ba bada boo be ba da baada<br />Boo ba bada boo be boo ba baada<br />Boo ba bada boo be ba da baada<br />Boo ba bada boo be boo ba baada<br />Boo ba bada boo be ba da baada<br />Boo ba bada boo be boo ba baada<br />Boo ba bada boo be ba da baada<br />Boo ba bada boo be boo ba baada<br />Boo ba bada boo be ba da baada urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lil_miss_flip:9524 2004-09-18T00:17:58Z 2004-09-18T00:17:58Z every minute we spend together<br />it keeps getting better and better<br />the number of butterflies increase<br />when i know he's about to call<br />or when his name pops up online<br />he knows just what to do to make me smile<br />he knows just what to do to make me laugh<br />he believes that i can do ANYTHING and will do everything to my best potential in this world.<br /><br />this is why i have a smile on my face right now.<br />he is the reason i feel content when i go to bed, and he is the reason i wake up every morning strong and ready to face the rest of the day. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lil_miss_flip:9461 2004-09-07T22:12:59Z 2004-09-07T22:12:59Z haven't updated for so long, i've been out and about, here and there doing last minute things before the summer ended..well it actually ended now, jus cuz today was the first day back at school. i was excited to see university friends, i freaked when i saw them, but i was more concerned about updating my student i.d., seeing if i could take back my marketing book (by the way i checked and it was sold :( SOOO upset..now i have to photocopy it from someone else, grrr!!!) and handing in all the osap papers. MAAAN so poor, and i have no money for books, food, and bus tickets, all until my osap money arrives..and even then, i gotta pay my treadmill and phone bill, grrrr!!! i need money urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lil_miss_flip:9146 2004-08-26T01:19:34Z 2004-08-26T01:19:34Z haven't updated this thing for a while..i guess when you're so busy and content with your life, you really have no reason to write about anything here..i can actually say that everything in my life right now is balanced..its all out in the open, everything about me physical, spiritual and mental has now been exposed inside out, and i have no secrets to hide. i've learned from my mistakes, i've got my motivation to be healthy and happy, and i've got a great support system. so now, there's nowhere for me to go except up, and i'm soo excited :) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lil_miss_flip:8904 2004-08-18T03:11:34Z 2004-08-18T03:11:34Z thank you for saying hi despite all i've done to you<br />thank you for still hanging on to me after the many times i've rejected you<br />thank you for being patient with a slow girl like me<br />thank you for being my support system and motivation for bettering myself physically, it really does help :) haha<br /><br />..because i know that deep inside, i'm still confused, and i don't want to rush into things, but i'm still grateful for the fact that you are willing to wait for me.<br /><br />and i'm sorry for all the troubles and pain i've caused already, and it has only been one month. funny how it's that short, things just go by so quick, don't they.<br /><br />thank you for realizing that we gotta take this slow, for me to catch on. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lil_miss_flip:8632 2004-08-17T22:13:54Z 2004-08-17T22:13:54Z okay, so last time i was on here i was ranting on about how much of an idiot i am.<br />and he's forgiven me.<br /><br />so now we're okay.<br /><br />?? why i'm giving him a chance again, i still do not know.<br /><br />but i'm willing to take the risk and find out.<br /><br />...why i'm still thinking about that *other* guy now and then beats me...but oh well we'll see wut happens. i'll try this dude out first. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lil_miss_flip:8212 2004-08-12T03:37:26Z 2004-08-12T03:37:26Z i feel like SHIT.<br />i'm such a horrible person. <br />and he knows it now too.<br />it can't work anymore, the damage is done.<br />i just feel so SORRY, i've taken him for granted.<br />and i'm SORRY. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lil_miss_flip:7994 2004-08-10T02:29:18Z 2004-08-10T02:29:18Z i know he's hurting..<br />and i'm hurting too, knowing that i've hurt him..<br />but it was something i had to do..if i continued it, we BOTH would have hurted a LOT more.<br />i'm just so sorry i had to end it.<br /><br />i'm sorry.<br /><br />i just wish i could have what i've wanted for the longest time..but i guess i'll have to wait for that time to come. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lil_miss_flip:7826 2004-08-09T03:28:41Z 2004-08-09T03:28:41Z wut a rollercoaster of feelings..one minute i don't like him, the next minute i do...<br /><br />i feel bad..i'm really a schizo full of emotions..<br /><br />right now i'm at the "on" moment. meaning i like him.<br />this is some crazy s**t urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lil_miss_flip:7539 2004-08-09T02:35:26Z 2004-08-09T02:35:26Z i feel so guilty, man..this guy loves me off, i can tell..but i'm not reciprocating the feelings, words, actions he gives me..i don't know if it's because i'm starting to not feel the same way as him, or if its because i don't want to be in a relationship right now...being at the festival this weekend made me realize that i love being single, and i love NOT being attached, and i LOVE knowing that i can flirt with someone and not feel guilty afterwards..but i DO feel guilty..and i don't know wut to do..because these kinds of opportunities don't come to me often, but i just have this feeling that i'm gonna SETTLE if i stay with him..<br /><br />cuz u know how ur supposed to get butterflies and stuff when u see that person? i don't..and u know how ur supposed to look forward to the times u spend together, and just LOOKING at that person's face is supposed to make u smile and feel all giggly? i don't..AND in general, usually when you like someone, you LIKE them 24/7, u can't stop thinking about them, and u can't WAIT to see them? well for me, i DON'T like him 24/7, and now most of the time i do think about him, but i think about how much i wouldn't WANT to be with him, AND i don't even know if i want to see him anymore..<br /><br />i'm wondering if this is all happening because my true feelings are starting to come out, not just my shallow side, or i'm wondering if its because of that oh so wonderful guy that everyone loves, and i do too because he's PERFECT, and i KNOW the type of feeling i'd get if we EVER had the chance to go out..but that will NEVER happen, i know that for a fact. so i'm wondering if i should just settle for THIS guy..<br /><br />but i should NEVER settle..cuz once u start even considering that ur just with him cuz ur "settling", u know its doomed for failure..for his life, for UR life, and i don't want that.because i want to be happy.<br /><br />i want to have that feeling where i can wake up in the morning, and smile, knowing that he's thinking of me, and knowing that he loves me as much, if not even more than i love him. i want to have that feeling where i can't wait to see him, and when i do see him i get butterflies in my stomach and i fall in love with him EVERYTIME..but its just not that way right now, and i don't think right now is the time where i can find that.<br /><br />because i don't think i like him, and most of the time now i'm wondering how i can get out of it..because it seems like he LOVES me already, even though we don't know each other that well..<br /><br />i don't want to hurt him, but i don't want to continue this.<br />i'm such a horrible person, i wish he never saw my picture. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lil_miss_flip:7333 2004-08-08T05:02:24Z 2004-08-08T05:02:24Z So extremely tired from this week's events.maaan.the things i try to do just to get noticed by a guy. lol but it sucks, because every other girl out there loved him off too..haha..i tried to make it look like i wasn't busy, so he could approach me..and he did a couple of times..WOOHOO! holy moly, he is the perfect guy for me..haha..PERFECT..but i don't want to talk too soon, cuz i don't even know him well enough..but STILL..it doesn't matter, cuz every girl is in love with him too...OOH he even winked at me when he passed by our booth lol..i'm such a dork..and i kinda feel bad, cuz i am talking to another guy..i mean..okay, i am SEMI attached..and at the end of the day i feel bad, but man when i'm talking to him i don't even care..shoot i'm considered a semi-player i guess..oh well..this crush won't last long..i only see him a couple of times a year anyway. :P can't wait for next year's events! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lil_miss_flip:7031 2004-08-03T03:35:38Z 2004-08-03T03:35:38Z i don't understand myself. i am such a bother, i am such a pain in the ASS, but he still puts up with me. WHY DOES HE BOTHER? if it were another guy, he would have already left me. but he hasn't. its because he knows its worth it once i get past it. but how can he see that? how can he be so confident that I feel that way? i don't even know how I personally feel. i don't even know if i like him physically, i'm starting to pick out little flaws, which are turning out to be huge things every time i look at him. and that's not good at all. because when HE looks at me, i can just tell he's still likes me, and adores me. it's not fair to him, and i don't know if i can let this continue. one part of me wants to give him a chance, because deep inside i like HIM as a person. his personality, his attitude, the way he treats me, because that's how i should be treated as a girlfriend. but another part of me wants to let him go, because i don't feel attracted to him physically, and every time i pick out flaws it just seems to be getting worse, making the whole situation worse. and i HATE myself for being so shallow, but my situation is different. i've already been through what should feel like the going-ons of a relationship, but i skipped the part where the person decides whether they even like the other person physically in the first place. it's retarded. purely RETARDED. when i'm next to him, i feel safe, i feel comfortable. everything feels natural, in its place, and i can be affectionate. but if you notice, when i'm sitting next to him i'm not looking at his FACE. when i sit in FRONT of him, i'm at my off moments, where i am doubting whether he'd be the type of guy i could go out with. so what does this mean? does it mean that what i REALLY want is the fact of knowing i have a boyfriend, having someone beside me that i can call my own? OR does it mean that i like him for who he is, but i'm still not at the comfortable stage yet where i can be COMFORTABLE looking at him physically, or even being with him physically face to face. i don't know. i've never felt so horrible before, because I am the one at fault. if i can only change my perception of how good looking he is to making it not even matter whether he's good looking or not, if i can only strip off that shallow part of me, maybe, just MAYBE we can work out. but what if its not me. how do i know that if i give him a chance, i'm just SETTLING for someone cuz i can't get anyone i WANT? settling is not good. because love is supposed to be a two way street. when you get into a relationship, BOTH of you must like each other. but this isn't how it is right now, and i'm so confused as to whether to leave it, or to move ahead. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lil_miss_flip:6882 2004-08-01T16:01:05Z 2004-08-01T16:01:05Z "Tomorrow"<br /><br />Jesus said here I stand<br />Won't you please let me in<br />And you said I will<br />But tomorrow<br /><br />Jesus said I am he<br />Who supplies all your needs<br />And you said I know<br />But tomorrow<br /><br />Tomorrow, <br />I'll give my life <br />Tommorow,<br />I thought about today<br />But, it's so much easier to say<br />Tomorrow,<br />Who promised you,<br />Tomorrow,<br />Better choose the lord today<br />For tomorrow very well might be today<br /><br />Jesus said here I stand<br />Won't you please take my hand <br />And you said I will<br />But tomorrow<br /><br />Jesus said I am he<br />Who supplies all your needs<br />And you said I know<br />But tomorrow<br /><br />OOOOOOOOOOO<br />Tomorrow, <br />I'll give my life <br />Tommorow,<br />I thought about today<br />OOOOOOOOOOO<br />But, it's so much easier to say<br />Tomorrow,<br />Who promised you,<br />Tomorrow,<br />Better choose the lord today<br />For tomorrow very well might be today<br /><br />And you said, your tomorrow would ever come for you...<br />Still you laughed and played and continued on to say......<br /><br />Tomorrow.... forget about....<br />Tomorrow<br />Won't you give your life today<br />OOOOOOOOOOOO<br />PLEASE<br />Don't just turn and walk away<br />Tomorrow, tomorrow is not the most<br />To let this moment slip away <br />WHOOOOOO<br />Your tomorrow could, could very well be here TODAY....... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lil_miss_flip:6600 2004-07-31T03:54:36Z 2004-07-31T03:54:36Z oh my gosh.i can't even describe how amazed i am on what happened tonight.team member a has struck again.i thought it was happening, then she told me i was wrong.then suddenly, he was there.we finally met.and was it awkward? surprisingly no.he's a sweetheart.he was the one who planned the surprise meeting because he knew I was the one who wanted to meet him unexpectedly.he dropped me home, and even gave me a rose before i got out of the car.awwww!!! holy crap.and its so weird, because when i'm near him everything just feels natural, i feel protected.and i hope that's a good thing.he's a great guy, i can tell already.and he wears swiss army.<br /><br />lol urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:lil_miss_flip:6207 2004-07-29T03:47:18Z 2004-07-29T03:47:18Z One Thing - Finger Eleven this is the story about a girl i know. it's very personal to her, but she thought it was best to have it written out, so that others could learn about her situation..her fears, her doubts, her highs, her lows. but this is a secret, so shhh...<br /><br />The Absurdity of "Life"<br /><br /> Once upon a time, a boy liked a girl. The girl spoke to him, thought he was a nice boy, but never would have pictured him as someone who could be her boyfriend. They only spoke online, so it was such a longshot for her anyway. Plus, the boy lived quite far from the girl. The girl never had any luck with boys her whole life, so she didn't think of him as anything special. But every time they spoke, he would tell her how much he liked her. She was a little bit concerned, since she only spoke to him online, but luckily, the girl had a special friend who knew just what to tell her. So slowly, she began to realize that the boy was still a nice boy after all. She developed feelings for him, which she thought was absurd, because she never even met this boy! So she told him how she felt, and to her surprise, he felt the same way! They both knew that in their hearts, that as weird as it was to feel something so strongly in their hearts for another person online, it was something incredible, and it was a risk they both knew they had to take.<br /><br /> Now remember, the girl never had any luck with guys in her past, so how could she know that this guy was any different? She knew, because every night when they would talk, whenever she had doubts of whether he liked her or not, he would suddenly say something out of the blue that was sweet enough to keep her smiling the rest of the night. So then she wondered, why this guy, why now, and why online? They already went through quite a lot, it was as if they knew each other for a long time! But it was different, because it was online. This was not something that would happen normally. This was an "abnormal" way to meet someone. But then it dawned to her; <i>Life</i> itself, was not normal. What she was going through, was just another twist <i>Life</i> threw at her. <i>Life</i> was giving her a different experience, different from most people in the world. Just as it would be traditional for a guy and girl to meet in person and then start liking each other, <i>Life</i> threw her a curveball. She had the chance to get to know this guy, THEN meet him. You could almost see it as coming out of a hollywood movie. <br /><br /> But her experience, we do not know, may still not have a happy ending. Because <i>Life</i> is still in control, and <i>Life</i> can still change things around from time to time. But it was because of <i>Life</i> that the girl was able to finally find her match. Someone who "fit the bill". And she thanked <i>Life</i>, for choosing her; and for allowing her to have this one-of-a-kind experience, in a one-of-a-kind way, with a one-of-a-kind boy.